I’m sorry.
Everyday, all day, I hate myself. I lost the one person I learned to love the most. I was a piece of shit but I was trying. I’m sorry I hurt you, I’m sorry I made you cry. I’m sorry for everything and I dwell on every spec of pain I’ve cause you. It’s haunted me since it’s happened. I know you don’t care anymore and I know it may not matter but I can’t let go. I’m lost. I just want you back. I’ve never stopped loving you. You were my fuel to fight my way back from the dead. And now that I’m here, alive, physically well. I’m walking a graveyard. I miss you everyday, I want to know if your ok and can’t even ask. I’m emotionally vacant and this is the most terrible way to live. You were always my light. You are everything I want and need in life. I just want to go back. But i cant. I don’t know what I’m doing or will do with myself. But i hope your doing everything you want and need to be happy. It’s been awhile. But I’ll still be here if you ever call. I love you. I’m sorry.